Hmm, not feeling super perky today. Mostly feeling thoughtful, with a little brooding and pouting thrown in.
Having a little bit of a crummy morning today which, added to a couple of things from yesterday has just got me in a little bit of a whiny mood this morning. First of all, this morning I nearly ran out of gas on the way to work because I wasn't paying attention. I didn't run out, but I had to get off the highway at an unfamiliar exit to find a gas station when I was already late for work. Then I pull into a BP station and for some bizarre reason, the gas pumps were having some sort of electronic hissy-fit and they wouldn't let me pay with a card and they wouldn't let me select pay inside either. So I give up on them and get back in the car to drive to another station, which doesn't have the pay-at-the-pump stuff at all. So then I have to stand there in the frigid wind while the slowest pump ever dribbles gas into my car. Then the traffic sucked on the way in, with people driving slow in the left lane and big-ass trucks looming over the center line and scaring the hell out of me more than once.
Add to that the fact that I cut my finger making dinner last night. (Actually, given the amount of vegetable and meat chopping I had to do for the empeneda recipe I was trying, I'm surprised I didn't cut myself worse.) It's not a big cut, but it's in an annoying place that hurts when I type. The recipe itself was pretty tasty, but it didn't tell me how much crust I needed so I didn't have nearly enough, and as I have no experience rolling the little empeneda rolls, they were pretty awful looking. Tasted okay though. I might talk more about my recent grocery/recipe/cooking adventures in another post, if I feel like it.
Those are just normal sort of grumpy-day type things though. What's really got me brooding a bit is a couple of the reviews I got on the Online Writing Workshop. They stung more than a little, not because they were particularly harsh, but because I recognized immediately that they were right in almost everything they suggested. Ouch. It's not that I'm feeling discouraged exactly, but I do feel like a little of the wind has been let out of my sails.
Writing a novel is kind of like climbing a mountain. It's a lot of work, and you have to be in it for the long haul. Basically what happened to me is that I could see the top. I wasn't feeling that tired and I was enjoying the landscape around me. I was excited to be so close and I was really moving along, enjoying myself. Then I reach what I thought was the top and realize that it was just a little ridge and that the real peak is still REALLY far away and that the climb still to come is way harder than what I've already done.
*sigh* I'm not giving up or anything. After all, it's an early draft, so I knew that it needs a lot of work still. That's the whole reason I put it on the workshop! So that I can get outside perspectives on what's working and what isn't. Still, it's just a little bit disheartening to realize that it needs a lot more work than I had been thinking it needed. Oh well, I've been in this spot before and I know I'll come out of it, the better for having received legitimate constructive criticism. Still, I think I may take a couple of days to feel sorry for myself in the meantime. *Bleagh*
In the meantime, Aint-it-Cool-News has a pretty dramatic site re-design up today. I'm not totally sure what I think about it at this point, because it's still too new, and I'm used to the old version. Anyway, could be cool once I get used to it.
Dave Barry's got a few things that made me smile:
First: A pothead gets narced on by his own dog
Next: Panda Poo Excites Experts
Last of all, I was extremely pleased with last night's first episode of Survivor: Pulau. New and interesting twists, a surprising amount of drama and backstabbing for just the first episode, and my early favorite is Ian. They've got a bunch of extra video up on their website too, for those of you who, like me, can't get enough.
Also, the fantasy league adds an extra level of enjoyment for me, although it's odd that they haven't posted the scores yet. Not sure what's up with that. Just another reminder though that you can join the league at any time, so if you want to join my mini-tribe, email me, and I'll send you an invite. You're still competing with everyone in the league, but it will give you a little web-page where you can easily compare your scores to mine and the other tribe-members. There's three of us so far, but room for plenty more!
Anyway, that's what's up with me today.